10 January, 2010

We all feel like this sometimes....right?

My life is filling up with wonderful, frightening things.

I feel like God has certain things he needs me to learn, and learn fast, before becoming a parent and splitting my focus.

I feel like I must be the most spiritual, the most organized, the most worthy, the most loving, and the most determined I've ever been in my whole life.

I'm going to be awesome, but I'm terrified.


I've never liked hard work.



There is a war within me. A war between growth and comfort, rightness and ease.

Succeeding is so important to me, but I want it to be easy.

Ow.

Ow.

Ow.


Perhaps it is a blessing I have no child as of yet. I've never been a good multi-tasker.


Hello life. Please don't hurt me!



Now is the time.


Now.

Now.

Now.

7 comments:

Chiemi said...

I don't like hard work either, but I love the end results. :)

Rebekah said...

Hee, I'm tha laziest mother ever! ;) Just like we talked about, Lars was yanked away from my teaching. Tiem for me to grow up and teach. =P Ow. Thanks, God. I'll be thankful when it's over....

Quixotic Healer said...

You're right Chiemi!

And Beka, that last line made me laugh :) If you ever need advice, let me know!

Grooving Gartners said...

mary, your time will come and it will probably be when you aren't thinking about it, as my sister says. when you become a parent you will automatically grow how you need to match the circumstances; that is how my life goes.

Rebeccah said...

I feel like that all the time :) you can do it Mary, I have seen you do remarkable things, and besides, you are amazing!

TyroErudition said...

I'm just going to say "ditto" to the above remarks; yes, we all feel like that; and blessings come after the trial of our faith (believe me, I'm experiencing this right now!). :)

Quixotic Healer said...

Thanks everyone :)